Happy Birthday Sweet Jacob

My sweet Jacob I am so sorry this was not written on your Birthday on the 18th. You have been so understanding with Joseph being in the NICU. I love you Jacob! My sweet 7 year old, oh how I love you so:) You had a birthday on the 18th and I am so sorry I did not write this blog sooner. With your brother Joseph being sick its been hard to sit down. You have been so amazing with all of this. Watching after Ella and Joshua. You are such a wonderful big brother. At school you recieved the unselfishness award and that does not surprise me.Jacob you amaze me everyday. You work so hard at everything you do. God is going to use you in big amazing ways. When I look at you I think to myself where has my baby gone. I am so proud of you and love you so much. Thanks for blessing me by letting me be your Mom.
Happy Birthday Jacob, Love Mom XXOO

Happy 2nd Birthday Ella

Miss Ella you were 2 Yesterday:) Its hard to believe that you are getting to be such a big girl. Things have been crazy around here with the birth of your sweet brother Joseph. He has been in the nicu since the day he was born. You have been such a good girl for your grandma's and daddy while mommy has been with him. I was able to spend the night at home on your birthday and sing you happy birthday and love on you. You bring such a joy to our family, tons of laughter and you are quite the little princess. Your brothers adore you and you have them wrapped around your little finger;) I am so sorry I was not with you all day on your birthday, but I know that when you look back you will understand that mommy needed to be with Joseph and that she loves all of you so much and would do anything for her babies.
I am sorry this post is the day after your birthday, but I wanted to make sure I documented it, even if it is a day late.
Happy Birthday my Love! I am blessed to have you as my daughter!

Happy 5th Birthday Joshua!

Oh my sweet sweet Joshua. You are 5 today, really you are 5! You are such a fun, sweet, wild and crazy little boy.

You have grown so much this year, you love school and are doing so well. You played soccer this year on the Tigers Team and were quite the soccer player:) I love your love for the Lord. You have taught me so much this last year on that. When I have been sad or worried you have been the one to quote scripture to me at the moment I needed it the most.

I am so proud of you little man, you make my heart just overflow.

Happy 5th Birthday Joshua David!

All my love xxoo

Mom

Don't want to forget

I wanted to make sure I wrote this down so I can have it always.. Ella and I were doing the normal ritual of going to bed. We brushed our teeth, put on her PJ's, read books, and sang our songs.. We were just laying in her bed and I kissed her head and said "I love you so much Ella".
Then I hear her tiny voice say "I love you". That was the 1st time she has ever said it and it just made my heart so happy...

Hands and Heart

Lately when someone sees me in a store walking with my cart, 3 kiddos and my big prego belly they will stop and say "You have your hands full". I just laugh and usually keep walking, many times wondering was that a compliment:)

OK so being a mom of 3 almost 4 is crazy I will admit. There are days I want to run away and hide under the covers. There are days all I deal with is tantrums and kids fighting, or throw up and snot. There are days when I feel like a bad mom. So many may think my hands are full!

Then there are the days when one of my kids gives me a hug for no reason, a "I love you" or a sweet "Thank You". My house is a home because its always filled with, laughter and tons of love. I know there will be good and bad days, but I also know that God has trusted me with these precious children and I am going to do my best to be the best Mom I can be.
I only have 18 years with them till they are on their own. Each moment with them is a gift, the good, the bad and the ugly..

So next time someone says my "Hands are Full" My response will be "Yep but my heart is overflowing!"

Snowy filled fun!

Dallas weather has been crazy this winter. Today it is 60 degrees, but the 1st 2 weeks of February it was snowy and Dallas pretty much shut down. The kids and I loved it, we baked lots of goodies, drank way too much hot chocolate, and did lots of sledding.
It was lots of family time filled with laughs and snuggling by the fire...just like I like it:)

Way toooooooooo Fast

Ella and I had a Mommy and me day today, shopping, lunch just baby girl and I :) I loved every moment of it, she is just growing so quickly. Where is my baby,those chubby legs and cheeks are all gone.. It is so hard to explain but there is something about having a girl...DO not get me wrong I adore my boys they are lights in my life, but there are some things that my husband and the boys do that quite frankly I do not understand..haha

Ella and I we are all girl:) I just love the bond that we have her and I.. For right now she loves and likes me and I am sure when the years go by there will be times she is like MOM! So I will enjoy our us time as much as I can..

Love you baby girl....

Enjoying life

We are really still here.. This 1st trimester of pregnancy nearly put me over the edge.. I was one sick Momma:) Now I am starting to get my life together.. Feeling back to normal and so happy to be back in the game again.

The boys are loving school, Jacob just amazes me with how he retains things at school. He is definitely his daddies boy with that one.. Joshua is just loving his school, he loves his friends and has wonderful teachers.. Ella is growing up so quickly I can tell she is ready to be in a little 2 day program next year. Every time we go to pick up Joshua she runs to his class and says hello to everyone and sits down to play.

As far as the baby goes I am almost 18 weeks and everything is going well. The doctor knows the sex of the baby but we decided to not find out this time. Since this will be our last baby we thought it would be a fun surprise. I have to admit I am excited to find out. Just praying for a healthy perfect baby.

I have to admit I feel very blessed that God has trusted me with 3 almost 4 children. Its a hard job but its by far been my favorite:)

Love you my May Munchkins..

We are still here:)

Wow I have not written on here in forever! Well school is in full swing, we love both the boys schools and Jacob is loving kindergarten. Ella is growing up so fast she is my little helper and is so full of animation. She is such a girl, she always gets into my jewelry and puts it on as well as my makeup, she takes the brushes and pats her little cheeks.

I think the biggest news is that there will be another May munchkin arriving next May. I know another May baby.. I have always wanted 4 but a couple months ago I had come to peace with having just 3, but God had other plans and we are thrilled. I have to admit I am a little scared, 4 kiddos yikes, but that is that much more laughter and fun, oh and craziness:)

To my little munchkins I love you so much, you fill my heart with joy.

Craziness and all!

My sweet family I just love them..I was laughing last night thinking how I have either been pregnant or having a baby every year for 7 years..haha..My life is full and I love every minute of it.. Craziness and all!

1st day of kindergarten

Jacob my sweet boy can you really be in kindergarten already..You love your new school and that makes my heart so full. You got in the car today and said that was "Awesome Mom". I am so happy for you to start this new chapter in your life. Oh and a little sad..but you know what you will always be my baby. I love you Jacob!

My little men

Just love these little men in my life:) I keep staring at them lately in awe of the young boys they are becoming. They are rough and tough and at the same time have hearts of sweetness and kindness. I am proud they call me Mom!

My Silly Man

What is the best way to describe you Joshua..



Yep this sums it up:)

Going Fast

The summer is just flying by... Now that all the kiddos birthdays are over it just seems like the days are going fast.. Jacob and Joshua have been taking swim lessons and have become little fish.. Joshua would not put his head in the water the 1st class and now the sweet little thing has his goggles on and is ready to go. That's all the boys want to do now is swim. I have to admit I am already a little water logged:)

Ella is starting to walk, she takes a few steps then claps with delight.. she is so proud of herself and so are we. She is a little kissing bandit she loves to kiss everyone.. I need to work on that:) She is a complete joy..

The boys are getting excited about Telluride.. I am excited to get out of this heat! I am ready for some slow pace lifestyle and just relaxing with my family... Lately I have gotten pretty sentimental about things, mostly about the kids and how I only have them for 18 years before they go on their own! Jacob is already 1/3 there. oh tears in my eyes.. I love them so much, even when Josh calls his friend poopy head (we are working on that).

Oh what a blessing I have been given by being their mom. I just hope and pray that they look back and remember these moments and love them as much as I have..

Jacob can you really be 6 today.. Where have these last 6 years gone? I can remember like it was yesterday holding you in my arms for the first time. You were a gift to us Jacob, we prayed for you and I have been blessed from the moment I found out I was pregnant with you..

You have such a caring heart, you have so many friends and its so cute to see you hang with the "guys". You were pretty funny this year when I would drop you off at school I got the come on and kiss me quick so my friends do not see it "look". You love to play soccer and you love love to watch sports.

I love you Jacob Daniel, you were my 1st born, my 1st son. You were the one who made me a Mom. I am so excited to see the boy you are becoming.

You are going to do great amazing things..

Happy 6th Birthday Jacob

Love, Mom

This week my oldest son Jacob Graduated and will now be going into Kindergarten. Where have the years gone? I remember like it was yesterday playing Thomas the Train and singing silly songs. My little guy is growing up.. As a mom I love to see the boy he is becoming but I am also sad that he is a boy and not my little baby anymore.

Congrats Jacob... we are so proud of you!

Happy Birthday Ella

Oh my sweet little Ella its hard to believe you are 1. Where did the year go. You are so much fun, and I feel so lucky to have you in our lives.

Things that you are doing are crawling, pulling up, saying Momma and Dadda..Oh by the way Momma was your first word:) You are all over the place, you will stand but not walk yet. You weighed 21 pounds and 30 inches long at your checkup. You are a growing little girl. I love you so much sweet pea. Thank you for the laughter you bring into our home, the pure sweetness of the love you bring to all of us.. You are going to do amazing things Miss Ella. God has truly blessed me by giving me you as my daughter..

Happy Birthday,
Love Mom

Mother's Day

Back in late 2002 I started to wonder if I would ever be a mom..I so had the desire but my body had other ideas.. I went through tests and medicine for about a year and no luck.. I struggled quite a bit and wondered why would God put this desire on my heart if it was not going to happen.

I put up a good front of being OK but on the inside I so wanted to be a mom.. I will never forget a woman's retreat I went on in 2003 and a wonderful speaker was giving her testimony and she said something that just hit me, "Give it to God" simple words but truly if we are honest with ourselves it hard to let go of things and give someone else control.

That night those words kept ringing through my ears, and I said to God, "I give it to you" you have put this desire on my heart and if its what you want for me I know you will make it happen. If not, show me what you would like for us to do whether it be other medicines or adoption, I give it you. That night there was a complete peace.

A few months later I found out I was pregnant. In May of 2004 I became a MOM, and In May of 2006, and in May 2009.. Do you see where My May Munchkins came from:)

My life has never been the same, I have never felt so much love as I do for these little ones. Going through the infertility really taught me to give it God and he knows the desires of my heart and oh he is so faithful..

So on this Mothers Day I want to tell Joshua,Jacob and Ella, thank you.. thank you for filling my life with so much joy. You are 3 amazing kids and I can not even begin to tell you how much I love you..
Happy Mothers Day!

Happy Birthday Joshua

Well Mr. Joshua you are 4 today! 4! so crazy how times just flies. You are a silly little one with all your dances, and faces and songs.. Of all your siblings you might be my strongest willed:) I know that God is going to use that for such great things.. even though right now there are times I might pull my hair out...:) Thank you Josh for all the sweet things you say to me.. your contagious laughter and your mischievous grin.. I love you with all my heart..

Happy Birthday Sweetie!

Love Mom